I've been killing myself the the last 8+ years, working for an average of 4 hours or so a day AND paying for most everything on the Cushing's sites. Some donations come in but not nearly enough to cover expenses. Don't even mention time.
I'm stuck on the non-profit paperwork. I just can't seem to get the expense spreadsheet in order. Where I pay for so much, I never really kept separate records. And guessing future expenses? Who knows what those will be. But I need to do estimates on the spreadsheet.
If I were to post this on the message boards, people would say that sure, they'd help. But then they'd disappear. I've seen it time and time again.
I understand that they have lives, they're sick, other things to do.
Why am I so obsessed with doing things that nobody else even cares about? If I stop - and I'm seriously thinking of it - I don't think anyone would notice that I wasn't doing, being, providing anymore.
Even on vacation, DH was working half days, so I was, too. Bios, answering emails, board moderating, news items for the newsletter and Cushie.info, this blog and the other blogs I do.
If I stop, I don't know what I'd do with my days, though - maybe finally get the house clean?
I was just going to say I'd take the rest of this week off as a trial, then I remembered - there's an interview tomorrow night, then formatting that for iTunes.
Maybe I'll take Friday off.
Maybe not :(