This Thursday I go back to Johns Hopkins for my annual post-Cushing's checkup. I used to go twice a year when I was on growth hormone but thanks to the cancer I can't take GH anymore.
I hope to have the courage to ask my endo for a script for Provigil. Dr. Dori mentioned it to me before an online interview and it sounds like something that would work for me.
But I don't know, if I get the script, if my kidney surgeon would let me take it. He's very protective of my one remaining kidney. I still wonder, though. If I took one pill, how much kidney "life" would I lose. Would it be worthwhile to gain a day of wakefulness and energy to lose an hour of kidney time?
At this stage of my life, I think that the trade off would be worthwhile. Of course, that's easy to say now. I'd probably feel different if I were undergoing dialysis!
But my endo might not even prescribe it so this may all be a wasted argument, even with myself.